LIFE

I turned 25 today or rather yesterday, oops, i m half done , am I.
always had this feeling that Ill live till 52,
may be im not supposed to be speaking of death ... or whatever.

I mean ok, forget lets change the topic.

But just think about it, its just once that you live,
its just once that you turn 1, or 2 or 25. Its just once you go to kindergarten, just once you turn 16, just once u die...
its just once that this moment comes by, it would never happen again.
I mean of course every moment is the quanta of existence.
but each of them is unique. the one that went by would never come again.

Goodness this is huge.

U know , life is like a rope. and ur holding it really lose..and its slipping by....
U are not aware when it started, of course no body ever remembers when they took their first breath, and u never know when it would end...
But well yeah may be u know that you would die, someday. Death is inevitable.
I mean that would just happen in a jiffy, one moment ur alive and the other ur dead.
it takes a lot of time for life to begin, 9 months is huge.., but the end is amazingly fast.
its like u know it, just at that last minute that the end is very close, just how u realize it when the rope is gonna end....

ok enough now may be..

lets talk about something else..

i feel every day as life passes by, u learn something...u learn the nature of things....
and at the end of it all , u realize that every is changing....
at some point of time u try really try hard .. try hard to keep things the way they are ...
but thats not its nature.... they would change.. and when that happens ... ppl cry ... sometimes they hide .. but yes they are still crying.

i was lying in my bed sometime back and was thinking about this...
i was very sleepy and had a headache...
and then started listening to some very beautiful music...
thats when i started to think about the whole life that has been..."its been 25 years" was telling to myself.. oh that souds huge... a lot of time has passed by... but it all happend moment by moment...
i was just wondering.. what are my learnings.. did i make the most of it...
did i acknowledge life ... or didnt care to reply ... when it asked "whats up ?"...

thinking about all those ppl whom uve met...things that uve done...things that u think u havent done and think that u shud have done.....things that haven't done .. just bcos u never thought about it.....
does it really matter...
and thats when i decide to write this blog...
i was wondering what is one thing that has never changed..

i always liked the quote " nothing is permanent except change"... but well there
somebody.. recently told me : "every thing changes... including the change ..yes that changes too :)"...
i mean i was like wow "yes she made a lot of sense"..

i know this is a very bad example...a perfectly synonymous example of physics..
verlocity = ds/dt .. change in distance w.r.t to time..
and accceleration = dv/td = d squared s /dt squared... change in velocity w.r.t time..
same way change is changing too... what would u call that ... yet another change.. :)

ok then coming back...
at first i was like yes.. true everything changes..
but then no i sunnly realise there is one thing that has never changed...
as far as this life is concerned...
nothing can be as faithful to you as your life, itself..the very power which is the difference
between "i am" and "i was".... as faithful as every single breath...
i mean think about... this breath has been so faithful.... it never ever forgets to come..
it never ever forgets to come by and say a 'hi'.....
u could always say... it would ultimately..
yes agreed.. but then i said "as far as life is concerned"...
it defines life...it is bcos... u are... otherwise u wouldn't even be reading this blog.. :)

the feeling of existence is beautiful..

my learnings...
... ok will come back soon..